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KATE'S ORDEAL
by
EMMA LESLIE
[Frontispiece: William in the shop.]
The National Sunday School Union
57 & 59 Ludgate Hill, London, B.C. 4
Printed 1887
CONTENTS.
THE MESSAGE
DID SHE FORGET?
IN LONDON
THE LOST PURSE
A DISCLOSURE
AT THE THEATRE
CONCLUSION
ILLUSTRATIONS.
William in the shop . . . . . . _Frontispiece_
Miss Eldon's visit
KATE'S ORDEAL
CHAPTER I.
THE MESSAGE.
"Do you think Katie Haydon is pretty--I don't?" and the speaker glanced
at her own bright curls as she spoke.
"Well, I don't know whether she is exactly pretty, but she always looks
nice, and then she is so pleasant and merry, and----"
"And so vain and stuck-up," put in the first speaker again.
"Oh, how can you say so?" said another, a plain, quiet-looking girl,
who had not spoken before. "Mother says she would make such a nice
nurse-maid; so quiet and bright as she is, children would be sure to
take to her."
"Well, I don't know so much about that, Mary, but I know she has asked
teacher about a situation--her mother wants her to go into the nursery."
"My mother wants me to do the same," said quiet Mary Green, "but
although I have spoken to teacher I do not expect to hear of anything
until Katie is suited, for she asked first, and people are sure to
choose her in preference to me." This was said without the least touch
of envy or jealousy. Before anyone could reply to it, Katie herself
joined the group. "Are we not late?" she said, breathless with her run
to catch them before they reached the school. "I have some news for
you. What do you think--I am going to London!" she panted, fanning
herself with her pocket-handkerchief, and casting a triumphant glance
at Esther Odell, the girl who had called her proud and stuck-up.
Esther was always talking about going to London, and saying disparaging
things of going to service--servants were vulgar and despised and she
never would be a servant, though her mother and father both said she
ought to get a situation. This was how Esther had talked, and it gave
Kate Haydon no small pleasure to be able to come and tell her
schoolfellow that she was going to the wonderful city first.
"Is it settled, Katie?" asked Mary. "Have you got a situation--are you
going to service?"
Katie shook her head. "I am going to serve in a shop. My cousin has
got a nice place at a baker's and confectioner's, and they want
somebody to help her, and she has written to me about it."
"What a lucky girl you are!" exclaimed Esther, in a tone of envy. "It
does seem hard, too, for that is just the kind of situation I want, and
I daresay you would have been as well pleased if it had been in the
nursery."
"My mother would have liked it better, I do believe," laughed Katie,
"for she seems half afraid to let me go to London, and serve in a shop
too!"
"Here comes teacher!" said Mary Green, and the conversation was
dropped, as the girls hurried forward to meet the lady.
They went into school together, and in the bustle of getting their
seats, Miss Eldon whispered to Kate, "Will you ask your mother to come
and see me to-morrow morning, Kate?"
"Yes, ma'am," answered the girl, wondering not a little what her
teacher could want to see her mother about--quite forgetting the
request she had made to the lady a few weeks before. The lesson for
that Sunday afternoon was about the honour and dignity of work and
service, for the lady knew that some of her class had adopted the
foolish notions of Esther Odell, and did not fail to bring forward this
subject whenever she had the opportunity, pointing out how God had made
it necessary for all to work and serve their fellow-men. Then she went
on to speak of the word "angel," and how in its original sense it meant
servants, and how many a household servant was a veritable angel in the
family she served, and with what honour and love she was regarded by
every member of it.
Listening to her teacher, it suddenly occurred to Katie that it was
about the business of her becoming a household servant that her teacher
desired to see her mother and her thoughts instantly reverted to Esther
Odell and the pleasant prospect held out by her cousin's letter. Her
mother would be only too glad to hear of a situation nearer home for
her she knew, but Katie had made up her mind to go to London if she
possibly could, and so the more she thought of it the more vexed she
felt that her teacher should want to see her mother just now, but how
to prevent it she did not know.
The girls chatted about the lesson, and about the relative advantage of
going to service, or learning dress-making and machine-work, but Kate
took little part in the discussion to-day; and when they reached the
corner where she must leave them, she felt glad to get away, to think
out the problem she had been puzzling over all the afternoon. She had
not told any of her schoolfellows of the message she had been charged
to deliver to her mother, so no troublesome questions or surmises had
been propounded by them, and if she could only contrive to banish the
whole subject from her mind--forget it entirely, her future would be
settled before the next Sunday came round, for her cousin's letter must
be answered the next day, and the offer accepted or declined, and she
knew there were many reasons why her mother could not well decline it,
unless she had something else in view for her.
Mrs. Haydon was a widow, often ailing, and never strong enough to earn
her own living by hard work, but through the kindness of her
brother--himself not a wealthy man--a little business had been secured
for her, enough to keep her in comfort, and he had urged that Kate,
being young and strong, ought to get a situation.
But nothing had come in their way likely to suit Kate, until these
letters from London offering her a situation with her cousin. Her
uncle had written as well as her cousin, urging that if she had nothing
else in view, she had better accept this, as she might not have such a
chance again--a view of the matter that Kate fully endorsed. She was
most anxious to go to London, and to serve in a shop and be called a
"young lady" was so much better than going to service she thought.
But her mother shook her head rather gravely, when she ventured to say
something of this to her. "I am not so sure about that, my dear. I
was a servant myself for years before I married your poor father, and
was much more comfortable and happy, I know, than half the girls are
that set up to be 'young ladies' now; so that I hope you will never
despise service, Kate," her mother had said.
Kate recalled these words, and many others that her mother had spoken
lately upon the same subject, but now that it seemed as though the
choice lay in her own hands, they had little weight with her. These
notions were old-fashioned, she whispered to herself, nobody ever went
to service now if they could possibly obtain any other employment.
Even Esther Odell was going to learn dress-making, although there was a
large family to keep, and her father's wages barely sufficed to supply
all their wants; and thinking of Esther, made Katie decide to say
nothing to her mother about her teacher desiring to see her, for she
never could meet her schoolfellows' taunts and jeers about being a
servant, when she had the chance of being something better. As Kate
went into the little back room, behind the shop, where her mother was
sitting, she noticed the traces of tears on her face, and asked rather
anxiously if she was ill.
"No, my dear, I have only been thinking this matter over again, and I
cannot help feeling troubled about it."
"But why should you, mother?" and Kate stooped and kissed the pale
anxious face, and was about to whisper, "You may have your wish after
all, for teacher wants to see you to-morrow morning." But a footstep
was heard on the stairs, and she said, "Here comes Aunt Ellen;" and the
next minute the door opened, and Mrs. Haydon's sister entered the room.
"Oh, you have come in, Kate. I came down to see if your mother was
fretting still. It's very foolish of her, I think. Of course, we
never can have things just as we wish, and if you can't get a nice
respectable situation in a family, you ought to take your uncle's
offer."
"Yes, yes, she shall; I've made up my mind about it now, Ellen," said
the widow, hastily; while Kate turned to the window to hide her
tell-tale face.
"Well, I'm glad the matter is decided so far, for you were just making
yourself ill with the worry."
"I don't see why mother should worry so much about it," said Kate,
petulantly.
Her aunt looked at her for a minute in silence, and then said, "Well,
she cannot expect to keep you tied to her apron-string all your life.
Of course, if you could get a quiet place near home it would be
better;" for Aunt Ellen at that moment was asking herself the same
question that Esther Odell had asked her schoolfellows an hour or two
before, "Is Katie a pretty girl?" and all at once a doubt had crept
into her mind about the wisdom of sending her into the midst of unknown
temptations. But she put it down at once, seeing that her sister had
at last decided the matter. "Of course, Kate will be careful and
steady, and not make any chance acquaintances," she said, answering her
own thoughts.
"Yes, yes; it is not that I am afraid of her," said the widow, hastily.
"And Aunt Ellen will always be here to take care of you," said Kate.
"I would not think of going so far away, if you had to be left alone."
"Yes, yes, my dear; I was not thinking of myself at all in the matter,
although I shall miss you terribly, but--but--"
"There, suppose you get your mother a cup of tea as quickly as you can,
Kate, that is what she wants," interrupted Aunt Ellen; and Kate,
feeling very uncomfortable, went to take her things off and get tea
ready.
Mrs. Haydon was better after tea, and could talk more cheerfully of
Kate leaving home. She knew very little of London herself, except what
she had heard from her brother, and very little of her brother's
family. He had several grown-up sons and daughters, and his wife had
been dead some years. Beyond these bare facts, she knew very little
about them, so that Kate would be going among comparative strangers,
and it was this that had troubled the widow most.
"You shall write to your cousin to-morrow morning, Katie, and I will
write to your uncle, it will be better to settle this at once, I
suppose."
"Yes, mother, I am sure it will--not that I want to leave you, mother,
I shall miss you dreadfully, I know, but then I may never have such a
chance as this again."
"True, Kate; but still I cannot help wishing it was to some nice
nursery you were going instead of a shop."
"But then it is only a baker's shop, mother," said Kate.
"Yes, yes; but it's so far away from home; if you could come to me for
the Sundays, Kate, or if I knew anything of your cousin Marion, it
would be different--I should feel more easy about you."
"Oh, mother, why need you feel uneasy. Surely you do not think I
should do anything wicked?" exclaimed Kate.
"No, no, my child. I hope that which you have learned at Sunday school
will not be so easily forgotten. Kate, you must find out a Bible-class
as soon as you get there, even if your cousins do not go to Sunday
school."
"But I should think they did, mother. Marion is only a year or two
older than me, and Isabel younger, so that I should think they would
go."
"I don't know, my dear, I never heard that they went to a Sunday
school, but I hope they do for your sake. Katie dear, you must ask
that God will take care of you every moment, and pray as you never did
before, 'lead me not into temptation.'"
"Yes, mother," murmured Kate hanging down her head, and almost wishing
now that she had delivered her teacher's message; for how could she ask
God to keep her out of temptation, when she was taking the matter into
her own hands determined to have her own way at all costs?
CHAPTER II.
DID SHE FORGET?
"Katie Haydon is going to London, ma'am. Did she tell you on Sunday?"
The speaker was Esther Odell, who could think of nothing else but her
schoolfellow's good fortune, and, meeting her teacher later in the
week, hastened to impart the important news to her.
Miss Eldon looked surprised and a little disappointed, for she had
heard of an excellent opening for Kate, in the nursery of a lady not
far off, who needed a bright, clever girl, able to assist the nurse
sometimes with the one child, and also learn to wait upon the young
ladies who were growing up. Such a nice place as this was not often to
be met with, and Miss Eldon had waited at home all day on Monday,
expecting Mrs. Haydon to call about it. She was on her way there now,
thinking she must be ill, or something had happened; she could hardly
think Kate had forgotten her message, for she was so anxious to obtain
a situation only a short time before.
But Esther Odell's news made her think it was very possible Kate had
forgotten all about it. "Did Kate tell you about this on Sunday," she
said.
"Yes, ma'am; she ran to catch us before we got into school, on purpose
to tell us. She is going to her cousin, to serve in a shop. I wish I
had her chance!" added Esther, with a sigh.
"And you think it is all settled, Esther?" said the lady.
"Oh yes, ma'am, I know it is. I met Kate yesterday, and she had been
to post the letters to her cousin and uncle, telling them she would go."
The lady stood for a moment in silence, debating whether she should go
on and see Kate, and ascertain whether the matter was finally settled,
or call upon Mary Green, and send her to see the lady about this
situation. Looking at her watch, the time decided her, for it was a
long walk to Mrs. Haydon's, and she would not have time to call upon
Mary if she went there.
"Thank you, Esther, for telling me this. Did you say you wanted a
situation?"
"Yes, ma'am, if I could hear of one like Katie's to serve in a shop and
be a young lady. I couldn't be a common servant," she added, quickly.
"A 'common servant,' Esther, what do you mean?" said Miss Eldon, rather
severely. "Do you know that to be a household servant you must have a
character that will bear the strictest inquiry, and therefore those who
are servants are known at once as respectable, honourable people, and
those who employ them know their value, and esteem them accordingly?
Have you so soon forgotten what I told you on Sunday?"
Esther hung her head, feeling very much ashamed for a minute or two,
but at last she managed to say, "I thought servants were always looked
down upon, ma'am."
"No one, whose respect was worth having, would look down upon a servant
because she was a servant. We always looked up to our dear old nurse,
Margaret, and loved her almost as a mother," said Miss Eldon. "Now,
Esther, think over what I have said, and put these foolish notions
away. I know your mother wishes you to go to service. Come and tell
me next Sunday, that I may look out for a situation for you. I must go
and see Mary Green now," and the lady bade her scholar good-bye, and
walked on.
Esther stood a minute looking after her. "I wish I was a lady, and
could have a fine silk dress like hers," she said, half aloud. "I knew
she wanted some of us to take a place, and if it wasn't for that proud
Kate Haydon, I think I would try it, but I couldn't bear to think of
her serving in a grand shop in London, while I was mewed up in a
nursery or kitchen here. Mother must grumble a little longer; I
daresay I shall hear of a place in a shop before long, and who knows
but I may go to London, too;" and Esther went on her way, her mind full
of the unknown glories of London, and vain wishes to be in Kate's place.
Mary Green ran in to see Kate a day or two afterwards, and tell her the
news that she had got a situation at Lady Hazeldean's, as under-nurse
and to wait on the young ladies.
"My dear, I am very glad to hear it," said Mrs. Haydon. "I only wish
it had been offered to Kate, instead of her going to London."
"But--but I thought--" began Mary.
"Mary, do come now, before it gets dark; I want to show you my new
dress," interrupted Kate, hastily jumping up from her seat, and running
out of the room.
Mary followed, but more slowly, wondering not a little at what she had
heard, for she thought Kate had refused this place.
"Don't say any more about this situation at Lady Hazeldean's,"
whispered Kate, when they were safely shut in the bedroom.
"But what can it matter? You do not want it, Kate. Miss Eldon told my
mother she had spoken to you about it on Sunday, but your mother did
not think it worth while calling to see her about it."
"How could she, when we had to write those letters to London directly?
There, Mary, isn't that a pretty print? I am to wear print dresses and
holland aprons in the morning, but Marion says we may wear what we like
in the afternoon, and so I am going to have a new dress for best, and
what I have been wearing on Sunday I shall wear every day there."
"Yes," answered Mary, but it was in rather an absent-minded manner, for
she felt puzzled about Kate, and her strange anxiety lest she should
talk about this situation she had obtained.
On Sunday, when the girls met as usual on their way to school, the
prospects of their two companions were again discussed, and although a
few, like Esther, wished they could go to London as Kate was going, it
was agreed that Mary was very fortunate in getting such a good
situation, although, as it was remarked, Miss Eldon always did get her
girls excellent places.
Kate felt rather vexed at having to hear all the excellencies of this
despised situation enumerated, and was not sorry to reach school, but
her teacher's first words vexed her still more, and put her into a
fright too.
"I was coming to see your mother last Tuesday, Kate; I hope she has not
been ill."
"Oh, no, ma'am; she's quite well, thank you," answered Kate.
"Then it was not illness prevented her from coming to see me on Monday?"
Kate coloured and hung her head, as she answered, "No, ma'am."
"Did you forget to deliver my message? I think I told you I wanted to
see her about a situation for you."
"You said you wanted to see her, ma'am, but--but I forgot it," said
Kate, under her breath.
"Well, never mind, it does not matter much, Kate, for I hear you have a
situation in London now," said Miss Eldon, thinking Kate was vexed and
angry with herself for having forgotten her message. But the fact was,
Kate, who was neither an untruthful nor deceitful girl, shrank from
telling a direct lie. She had yielded to the temptation last Sunday
because, as she had persuaded herself then, she was not required to
tell an untruth, but merely to hold her tongue about the message; but
now she found that to hide that wrong-doing a direct lie must be told,
and, although it made her uncomfortable and unhappy, it was done. But
she protested again and again to her own conscience that she would
never do it again. Before she left school, however, she had another
fright.
"When do you go to London, Kate?" asked her teacher, as the girls were
leaving.
"To-morrow week, ma'am," said Kate.
"Well, I will try and see you one day in the week, for I want to hear
all about your new situation and what your mother thinks of it," said
Miss Eldon, quite unconscious of the panic her words had put Kate into.
It made her last days at home the most miserable she had ever spent,
for Miss Eldon did not come until Saturday afternoon, but Kate had been
in suspense every hour during the whole week, and yet the foolish girl
could not summon up the courage necessary to tell her mother the truth
about the matter.
The dreadful moment arrived at last, when there came a knock at the
door, and Miss Eldon entering, was soon seated in their little back
room, and Kate's mother with her.
"I was so much surprised to hear that Kate was going to London," began
the lady, removing her gloves for an easy chat.
"Yes, ma'am, it was a surprise to me, and something of a shock too, I
may say, for I had rather she had got a nice comfortable place nearer
home."
"Yes, it is a pity I did not hear of this vacancy at Lady Hazeldean's a
day or two sooner, for I can quite understand how anxious you must feel
at a young girl like Kate leaving home."
"Yes, ma'am, and if it had been anybody but my own brother that offered
it, she should not have gone, but he has been a good friend to me, and
I cannot afford to offend him. If I could only have written and told
him I had a place in view for her, it would have been different. I
suppose, ma'am, if you had heard of this nursery-maid's place a week
earlier, you would have recommended Kate for it, as she spoke to you, I
think, before Mary Green."
"Yes, she did, and I recommended her to Lady Hazeldean, when I called
there and heard of it, for I thought it would be just the place for
Kate; and I must say I felt a little vexed as well as disappointed that
you did not come to see me last Monday week about it."
The widow stared at her visitor. "I never knew that I was expected,"
she said.
"Has not Kate told you since, that she forgot to deliver my message
when she came home on Sunday? I told her to ask you to call and see me
on Monday morning, for I could not conveniently leave home on that day,
and I had promised Lady Hazeldean she should see you and Kate as soon
as possible."
"And Kate knew that and never told me!" gasped the widow.
"No, no, perhaps if I had explained it all to her she would not have
forgotten it, but I could not do that in school, and so I merely told
her I wished to see you on Monday morning," said Miss Eldon, quickly.
"Kate, how could you have forgotten such a message?" said her mother,
sharply.
But Kate stood with downcast face, and said not a word.
"You must not be angry, Mrs. Haydon; it was excusable, I am sure, if
you had just received these London letters," said the lady, gently.
"I don't see how she could have forgotten such a message," said the
widow, in the same vexed tone. "Did you know what I was wanted for,
Kate?" she demanded, turning once more to her daughter.
But Miss Eldon answered for her: "Oh, no; she could not have known it,
and so I am the only one to blame in this business," she said.
Kate felt very grateful to her teacher for thus helping her out of the
difficulty, and vowed in her own mind that she would never act so
deceitfully again. No, never again would she follow such a crooked
path, and deceive her mother, for it was deceit; now she saw it quite
plainly. But still she was afraid to confess the whole truth about the
matter.
After Miss Eldon had gone, she had an opportunity of doing this, for
her mother said: "Now, Kate, tell me the whole truth about this affair."
"The truth, mother?" repeated Kate. "Teacher told you the whole truth."
"But how could you forget such an important message as this, when you
knew it was just what I was wishing for you to get--a nice quiet place
near home?"
"But teacher did not say a word about the place that Sunday afternoon,"
said Kate, in an injured tone.
"But you might have known--might have guessed--what it was likely to be
about. It is not as though Miss Eldon was in the habit of sending for
me. She never did such a thing before."
"But still, how was I to know she had heard of a place at last? I have
been waiting months and months, and nothing has come."
"I know that; but still how you could forget that Sunday afternoon,
when you came home and found me in such trouble about your going to
London, is more than I can understand."
[Illustration: Miss Eldon's visit.]
But the foolish girl persisted in declaring that she had forgotten all
about the message, in spite of her mother's frequently expressed
doubts, soothing her conscience by assuring herself that this should be
a warning to her never to do so again. Kate felt quite sure about
this; let the temptation be what it might, she never would yield to it
again, as she had done in this instance, for it had made her miserable.
But I am not sure that Kate felt sorry enough for her fault yet to wish
it undone. When she went up to bed that night, instead of kneeling
down and confessing her sin to God, and asking His forgiveness, and His
grace to keep her in the future, she peeped into the box that stood
ready packed, and thought with a feeling of triumph that she was going
to London after all, and her mother would forget all this fuss that had
been made about her teacher's message when she heard how well she was
getting on there; and so full was Kate's heart of these thoughts that
she jumped into bed without kneeling at her bedside, but still feeling
quite confident that she would never act again as she had done, now
that she had got her own way, and was sure of going to London.